Laughs, hugs, smiles and contented sighs

"You are unrepeatable. There is a magic about you that is all your own..." ~D.M. Dellinger

2011-11-09T19:57:00.000-05:00

"They say that every snowflake is different. If that were true, how
would the world go on? How could we ever get up off our knees? How could we
ever recover from the wonder of it?”
~Jeanette Winterson

Lately I have been struggling with the concept of 'individuality";
the idea that I am a unique human being who cannot be replicated.

All through our childhood we are told that we are different, unique and
special but, in the end, aren't we really just copying someone that came before
us? (Even as I write this I feel as if I am a cheap imitation of Carrie
Bradshaw).

What purpose is the “you're different”, “you're unique”, “you’re special” rhetoric designed to serve?

Could it possibly have been more detrimental than helpful?

When speaking with a friend the other day I shared a very private (and somewhat embarrassing) thought....I still think that I am going to grow up to 'be somebody'.

By ‘somebody’ I don't mean *just* a good citizen, employee, friend, girlfriend, wife, mother etc., to me those are all a given. What I mean is somebody famous, somebody known, somebody who will impact the lives of others on a large scale.

I am not particularly outstanding at anything

I don't have any unique physical features
I don’t have any special talents
…so what makes me think I deserve fame or recognition?

I partially attribute this feeling to how easy it seems to gain notoriety in this day and age via the internet. Shouldn’t I just be able to write a kitschy blog, film a funny video or post a beautiful picture and become instantly famous?
No? But that worked for:

A) Rebecca Black
B) The casts of the following shows:
1. Jersey Shore
2. The Real House Wives of Orange County
3. The Real House Wives of New Jersey
4. The Real House Wives of New York
5. The Bad Girls Club
6. Dog the Bounty Hunter
etc.

However, I can’t blame the internet completely for this identity crisis, as much as I might want to. So who/what else is to blame for endowing me with this feeling of entitlement? I attribute it to the “snowflake principle”, the teaching that we are all different, unique and special.

Now, please don’t get me wrong – I truly WANT to believe that I am different, unique and special. To be honest, regardless of this rather depressing missive, I think I am!

However, I think that this “snowflake principle” often sets up people for failure.

Why do I think I deserve a great job? Because I’m different, unique and special.
Why do I think I deserve a great home? Because I’m different, unique and special.
Why do I think I deserve a great boyfriend? Because I’m different, unique and special.

So – what is the solution/end game? Do I attempt to define myself with new interests and attributes to prove that I, in fact, AM different, unique and special? Take up hot air ballooning? Or duck wrangling? Learn π to the 1000th degree? Unfortunately I don’t know the answer. So, for now, I will continue to ust be myself and hope that there isn’t an imposter running around, trying to steal what is ‘owed’ to me.

“A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever.” ~Unknown

2011-02-16T21:36:00.002-05:00

What if you were able to remember every single moment of every single day of your entire life? What if it took you all of three seconds to recall what you had for lunch on May 16th, 1996? Or how many times you made a right turn on June 26th, 2005? Or, more importantly, every time someone said something hurtful about you - ever. Or how many times you had been embarrassed? Or how many times you had been sick? Or failed a test?

Would you ever venture out and take a risk? Would you put yourself out there in friendships or relationships? Would you try something new? Or would you be paralyzed by the memory of every single time you failed?

Your memories would be as fresh as if they happened minutes ago - does that mean the pain/pleasure/sadness/happiness would be as fresh as well?

Would the good memories balance out the bad?

Or would you just hold onto every small defeat...forever.

“God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December.”

2011-02-14T20:41:00.001-05:00

"I love Valentine's Day. When you're a kid everyone gets a Valentine. It's like 'TO TIM, NICE PANTS, LOVE SCOTT'." - Mike Birbiglia

2011-02-14T17:54:00.004-05:00

I have a confession to make.

Even though I'm single (and have been for 26 out of the past 27 Valentines days)...

I like Valentines day.

No, not the commercialized, forced affection part of Valentines day but I do appreciate any opportunity to give gifts, tell people you love them and make them smile. Perhaps the reason I can appreciate this 'holiday' (without being bitter) is because I don't believe that it should be limited to celebrating romantic love. I believe Valentines day can, just as easily, be used to celebrate love for your family or your friends either in addition too or instead of celebrating romantic love.

For as long as I can remember I would wake on on Valentines day to find a special treat from my parents. Sometimes it was chocolates, sometimes a special cookie, one year it was a heart shaped coin purse and every now and then it was just a card. Regardless of what the gift was, it was a reminder of love - my parents love for me as well as the possibility that love, true and romantic love, was out there somewhere.

So, here's hoping that Valentines day brought you some love - love from your family, your friends, your pets, your coworkers...whomever.

“Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends we choose.” -Tennessee Williams

2010-10-24T19:11:00.004-04:00

I am incredibly lucky. I have had the same amazing best friend since I was in grade 8. I spent the afternoon with her today and I realized that the very best part of our friendship is that she makes me feel that I am the best possible version of myself. I don't have to pretend to be cooler than I am, or smarter than I am or funnier than I am...when I am with her I am the perfect amount of cool, smart, funny etc. I hope that I make her feel the same way.

In my life, this level of comfort and security has been something that I have found difficult to achieve with people outside of my family. My immediate family know pretty much ever facet of who I am and, they too, make me feel as if I am a perfect version of myself.

Someday I hope to find this quality in a mate...a man who makes me feel as if I am the perfect version of me. Who doesn't want to change where I came from, how I look, what I value or the things and people that I love. I do believe that the person you are with should challenge you to try new things and consider new ideas...but I don't want to feel as if I am a square peg trying to fit into a round hole just so I don't have to be alone.

And so...I continue to wait...

“If you blame others for your failures, do you credit them with your success?”

2010-10-13T20:28:00.004-04:00

Blame: The state of being responsible for a fault or error; culpability.

Responsibility: Something for which one is responsible; a duty, obligation, or burden.

Not every workplace is ideal. Responsibilities are not always well defined therefore...sometimes things fall through the cracks. Tasks don't get done or they are done incorrectly - it happens, we're human. However, what bothers me the most is when no one takes ownership for their mistakes. When I say "ownership" I don't necessarily mean "oops, I messed up, I'm sorry" (although that is nice). What I mean is - seeing a problem -> looking for a solution -> putting the solution into practice. Often, instead of ownership, people just pass the buck...they don't want to make the tough decision or have the awkward conversation...instead they want to "think about it".

I know that I am new to the corporate world and it is easy for those on the "outside" to criticize. I admit that I don't have to concern myself with the bottom line, answer to the owners or reach a sales goal. I am only accountable for my small list of responsibilities however my pay scale and benefits reflect that level of responsibility. However, sadly, the people on the "outside", the people with that level of responsibility and corresponding pay scale, are the ones who have to deal with the day to day challenges which arise out of the indecisiveness.

In the end, I suppose it is just one of life's little frustrations.

“If there were no God, it would have been necessary to invent him.” -Voltaire

2010-10-06T20:17:00.004-04:00

"I know that you don't believe in God or the power of prayer. And that's okay. To each his own. But you've go to believe in something. Something more than you can touch taste or see. Because life is too hard to go through it alone. Without something to hold onto and without something that's sacred."

A while back I had a discussion with a friend about religious beliefs. During our conversation this person revealed to me that they are an atheist and that really made me think. Atheism is a concept that I just can't wrap my brain around. I understand people believing different gods or multiple gods or "the universe" but I can't figure out how someone can go through life without believing in anything at all. Do these people believe that everything that happens to them everyday is a completely random occurrence with no rhyme or reason? I feel like too many awful and wonderful things happen every day for there not to be some sort of cosmic plan. However, to be fair, I have had of wonderful things in m life so perhaps that is why it is so easy for me to have faith in "the plan".

Although...perhaps if you believe in something less ethereal like you family and your friends you won't spend your life trying to appease your god or gods. Perhaps the atheists have it right and instead of focusing on trying to please the big guy in the sky we should focus on trying to please the old woman beside us on the bus or the young man bagging our groceries.

Personally, I think that I will always believe in the big guy in the sky and not just because of the blessings he has given me. I believe in him because in order to live my life I need to know that there is a blueprint, a master plan. To those that don't need that comfort and safety I give my kudos...I am not brave enough to go it alone.

“Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.”

2010-09-18T14:17:00.005-04:00

Recently I have found myself randomly thanking the universe for things.

"Dear Parking Spot,

Thank you for showing up just when I needed you.

Love, Emily"

I'm not sure where this practice originated but by releasing these thoughts into the universe I like to think that I'm contributing a little bit of positivity and light. Perhaps by thanking the universe for these daily miracles it will feel refreshed and rejuvenated and inspired to make more magic happen.

Today I stumbled upon the blog of a woman doing the very same thing! Exciting.

The site is http://www.thxthxthx.com/ and it is delightful! Here are a few of my favorites...

What about DOUBLE rainbows?

I am married to Disney World, but New York is my mistress. She's dirty and I like it!

I wholeheartedly agree.

This happens to me all the time!

My absolute favorite because it is so true! In fact, I just did it.

The air in my apartment doesn't smell like cookies but it does smell like my cinnamon candle. YUM!

As someone who suffers from mild social anxiety this is the BEST feeling in the world!

"I began to believe the fairy tales: You know, how we're all out there looking for our magical missing half. "

2010-08-29T21:57:00.002-04:00

Once upon a time there was a little girl who grew up watching Disney movies. Each film reinforced her desire to find her "Prince Charming" and live "happily ever after".

Now that she is grown up she still watches movies, lots of movies... and the movies still have the same message. However, now instead of looking for Prince Charming in a cape or a crown she is looking for her tortured, satirical, music loving, cardigan wearing indie boy.

500 Days of Summer

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

Youth in Revolt

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World

A young, awkward man longing for his quirky, enigmatic soul mate. The setting is different but the story and the characters are the same. How I long to be the slightly pretty and neurotic, cardigan wearing love interest...but I don't think it's meant to be. I didn't fit into the stereotype of the "damsel in distress" or "the princess" and I don't fit into the stereotype of the "pretty, complicated but endearing indie girl" either. I'm too loud, to open, to mainstream to find the indie prince charming I've been searching for. Do I need to change my expectations? Should I just settle for a nice guy who likes me?

Or will someone, someday finally be both the one I want and the one that wants me.

"God dwells within you, as you."

2010-08-29T19:26:00.003-04:00

A few years ago I read the book "Eat. Pray. Love." At the time it was a beautiful concept...a woman who leaves everything comfortable and comforting behind to figure out who she is. When I read the book I thought "I want to do that...go away and experience other cultures...really find out who I am." Today I saw the film and I finallyl realized how sad this woman's life was...she had NO idea who she was. She had been in relationships since she was 15 years old and she never had time to figure out who she was, what she loved and where she was going. All her life she did what was expected of her- school, career, marriage, buying a house, having a child.

How awful would it be to know that there was nothing in the world that you genuinely cared about? Not people, or your job, or a hobby. She was just a mirror...instead of being her own person merely she reflected the love and passions of her friends, family and lovers. And even worse, she was totally aware of her absence of interests, faith and passion.

I could never, ever exist knowing that there was nothing unique about me.

Living the life of a chameleon...changing your colours to suit your surroundings. Sure, I think everyone does that to an extent, especially during high school and university. For heaven sakes I used to listen to Operation Ivy and wore studded bracelets that I bought at Claire's to impress a boy I liked...but eventually I understood...that wasn't for me (and neither was the boy).

I suppose everyone needs a time in their live where they can figure out exactly who they are. But...I can't even imagine how difficult it would be to start from scratch.

"Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange."

2010-08-05T00:21:00.004-04:00

I fully intended to write about "Inception" tonight when I got home from the movie theatre. Not a review, necessarily, but my thoughts and opinions on what that has been heralded as one of the greatest films of the decade.

However...

I am fairly sure that if I attempt to delve into the layers of that film my brain will self-destruct. Even as I write these words, smoke is pouring out of my ears as a result of my brain attempting to process the information it has just been fed.

Therefore, instead of writing, I will sleep....perchance to dream.

"Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.”

2010-08-04T19:11:00.004-04:00

I believe that you do not choose who you fall in love with.

I also believe that two consenting adults who are in love should be able to share their lives, forever, no matter their race, sex, religion or creed.

In July of 2005 Canada legalized same-sex marriage. Our country served as a haven for couples in love who were not able to be married in their own counties, state or cities. I am proud to live in a country that recognizes the rights of people regardless of their sexual orientation. People are people.

Today, Proposition 8 was overturned, legalizing same sex marriage in California...
in this I see progress, hope and, above all, love for our fellow man.

"God doesn't make mistakes. People are born how they are born. And I think people should be able to get married and love each other."

~Kristin Chenoweth

"Thoughtcrime does not entail death: thoughtcrime is death."

2010-08-02T22:39:00.004-04:00

Does anyone else think that "geolocation" is actually a really bad idea?

What is geolocation, you ask? Well, according to wikipedia (an always reliable source) geolocation is the identification of the real-world geographic location of an object, such as a cell phone or an Internet-connected computer terminal.

A more specific example of geolocation would be "foursquare"...what is "foursquare", you ask? Back to wikipedia for this little nugget.."Foursquare is a location-based social networking website, software for mobile devices, and also a game. Users "check-in" at venues using a mobile website, text messaging or a device-specific application. They are then awarded points and sometimes badges."

Aside from the fact that the foursquare notices which clutter up my news feed are INCREDIBLY annoying I also think that it is dangerous and a tad narcissistic. First of all , if you are in a coffee shop in the distillery district...that means I can break into your house and steal your shit, right?

And secondly, despite what you may think, I do not need/want to know where you are at all times. And even less, I do not want updates sent to me every five minutes outlining this fact. It makes me feel as if I am indirectly stalking you and I don't like that feeling.

Maybe it's just me but, in an age where parents preach constant vigilance to their wee ones and change passwords weekly to protect their identities, doesn't it seem counter intuitive to advertise your location every minute of the day?

"...but when defining Canada don't forget to mention that we have set sparks..."

2010-07-30T21:43:00.006-04:00

The first time I heard Shane Koyczan I was rendered speechless...and that is hard to do.

I know that I am more than a little bit behind in writing about Shane Koyczan, one of the greatest Canadian talents of our time. Shane performed an extremely moving, funny and telling tribute to our country at the Opening Ceremonies of the 2010 Vancouver Games. His poem, "we are more" is a great inspiration to anyone who has ever worked abroad and had to defend their country to ignorant foreigners.

Thanks to a dear friend at work, my eyes were opened to this incredible artist, speaker, writer and poet and the voice of not only our nation, but also the voice of my generation. He speaks with truth, humour and bravery in a way that can move you to tears, to laughter or to action.

Please enjoy the text from "We Are More" below but I urge you to watch Shane recite his poetry via youtube or itunes to understand the full experience.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BIr9oSK53E&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91CyZqlfQ7Y&feature=related (featuring Dan Mangan, who I love!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VrZE8MCnIA&feature=related

We Are More
by Shane Koyczan

When defining Canada
you might list some statistics
you might mention our tallest building
or biggest lake
you might shake a tree in the fall
and call a red leaf Canada
you might rattle off some celebrities
might mention Buffy Sainte-Marie
might even mention the fact that we've got a few
Barenaked Ladies
or that we made these crazy things
like zippers
electric cars
and washing machines
when defining Canada
it seems the world's anthem has been
"been there done that"
and maybe that's where we used to be at
it's true
we've done and we've been
we've seen
all the great themes get swallowed up by the machine
and turned into theme parks
but when defining Canada
don't forget to mention that we have set sparks
we are not just fishing stories
about the one that got away
we do more than sit around and say "eh?"
and yes
we are the home of the Rocket and the Great One
who inspired little number nines
and little number ninety-nines
but we're more than just hockey and fishing lines
off of the rocky coast of the Maritimes
and some say what defines us
is something as simple as please and thank you
and as for you're welcome
well we say that too
but we are more
than genteel or civilized
we are an idea in the process
of being realized
we are young
we are cultures strung together
then woven into a tapestry
and the design
is what makes us more
than the sum total of our history
we are an experiment going right for a change
with influences that range from a to zed
and yes we say zed instead of zee
we are the colours of Chinatown and the coffee of Little Italy
we dream so big that there are those
who would call our ambition an industry
because we are more than sticky maple syrup and clean snow
we do more than grow wheat and brew beer
we are vineyards of good year after good year
we reforest what we clear
because we believe in generations beyond our own
knowing now that so many of us
have grown past what used to be
we can stand here today
filled with all the hope people have
when they say things like "someday"
someday we'll be great
someday we'll be this
or that
someday we'll be at a point
when someday was yesterday
and all of our aspirations will pay the way
for those who on that day
look towards tomorrow
and still they say someday
we will reach the goals we set
and we will get interest on our inspiration
because we are more than a nation of whale watchers and lumberjacks
more than backpacks and hiking trails
we are hammers and nails building bridges
towards those who are willing to walk across
we are the lost-and-found for all those who might find themselves at a loss
we are not the see-through gloss or glamour
of those who clamour for the failings of others
we are fathers brothers sisters and mothers
uncles and nephews aunts and nieces
we are cousins
we are found missing puzzle pieces
we are families with room at the table for newcomers
we are more than summers and winters
more than on and off seasons
we are the reasons people have for wanting to stay
because we are more than what we say or do
we live to get past what we go through
and learn who we are
we are students
students who study the studiousness of studying
so we know what as well as why
we don't have all the answers
but we try
and the effort is what makes us more
we don't all know what it is in life we're looking for
so keep exploring
go far and wide
or go inside but go deep
go deep
as if James Cameron was filming a sequel to The Abyss
and suddenly there was this location scout
trying to figure some way out
to get inside you
because you've been through hell and high water
and you went deep
keep exploring
because we are more
than a laundry list of things to do and places to see
we are more than hills to ski
or countryside ponds to skate
we are the abandoned hesitation of all those who can't wait
we are first-rate greasy-spoon diners and healthy-living cafes
a country that is all the ways you choose to live
a land that can give you variety
because we are choices
we are millions upon millions of voices shouting
"keep exploring... we are more"
we are the surprise the world has in store for you
it's true
Canada is the "what" in "what's new?"
so don't say "been there done that"
unless you've sat on the sidewalk
while chalk artists draw still lifes
on the concrete of a kid in the street
beatboxing to Neil Young for fun
don't say you've been there done that
unless you've been here doing it
let this country be your first-aid kit
for all the times you get sick of the same old same old
let us be the story told to your friends
and when that story ends
leave chapters for the next time you'll come back
next time pack for all the things
you didn't pack for the first time
but don't let your luggage define your travels
each life unravels differently
and experiences are what make up
the colours of our tapestry
we are the true north
strong and free
and what's more
is that we didn't just say it
we made it be.

"Of all mindfulness meditations, that on death is supreme."

2010-07-30T20:34:00.003-04:00

The next time you have to do an unpleasant task, consider the option of not being able to do it because you are no longer living. Taking out the garbage. Doing your taxes. Walking the dog. I suppose this way of thinking could be beneficial for a while but eventually would it lose its impact? Would you become complacent with the concept of death? I think that the consideration of death is an important, although admittedly morbid, practice. I wouldn't say that it is something that I think about often but every now and then a thought pops into my head...."someday I will cease to be..."

People have very different ways of dealing with the death while trying to live their lives - some people become obsessed while others ignore the inevitable completely. In "The Happiness Project" (I know, I know - enough with that book already!) the author examines her mortality by reading "memoirs of a catastrophe"; books based on the pain and suffering that others have survived. By doing so, the author found herself with a heightened appreciation for her "ordinary existence" as well as a "new and intense appreciation for her obedient body."

I find a similar type of peace in hearing stories of others suffering...how lucky am I to be a free, healthy, intelligent woman living in this era, this country, this city? As I said, I am not one to dwell on the negative or obsess over death, but I do think it is important to put ourselves in situations that remind us of how lucky we are to be alive.

"Remember, friends, as you pass by,

As you are now so once was I.

As I am now, so you must be.

Prepare yourself to follow me."

"Waste no more time arguing about what a good man should be. Be one.”

2010-07-23T22:18:00.005-04:00

I have always worried that the contributions that I make to the world may not be enough.

I didn't donate enough money...

enough thought...

enough effort...

enough time...

Is the job that I am doing making a positive contribution to the universe? How am I helping the victims of an earthquake halfway around the world by planning parties in Canada?

What is the legacy that I am leaving?

When I was in therapy I would voice these concerns to my therapist, her response was that I was comparing apples to oranges...it is impossible fix all of the problems of the world. You can only do what you can do. Last night I found a similar message in "The Happiness Project".

"We expect heroic virtue to look flashy -- moving to Uganda to work with Aids victims, perhaps, or documenting the plight of the homeless people in Detroit. (Saint) Therese's examples shows that ordinary life, too, is full of opportunities for worth, if inconspicuous, virtue."

Never underestimate the contribution that you are making to the universe. And don't let anyone else devalue your contribution. Whether you are doing something small like helping to plan a fundraiser, donating $10 to a charity or volunteering or something big like dedicating your life to a not-for-profit organization or working in a research lab on the cure for cancer...every little bit helps.

"It is more fitting for a man to laugh at life than to lament over it."

2010-07-21T22:08:00.006-04:00

So, I guess Toronto isn't as cold and heartless as everyone thought.

No, Toronto has feelings and they can be hurt just like any other cities feelings can be hurt.

Wait a second...can a cities feelings be hurt? That doesn't seem right...

The Niagara Parks commission recently launched an ad campaign that was ever so slightly disparaging to Toronto and the Torontonian way of life.

*GASP!*

How dare anyone insult Toronto with it's diverse neighbourhoods, cultural festivals, delicious restaurants, burning police cards, stunning smog-filled vistas and insane traffic jams.

Oh...wait...some of those weren't good, were they?

Now before you jump down my throat I want to make something VERY clear...I LOVE Toronto. My best friend lives just off the Danforth and I have another close friend lives who lives off Queen West. Toronto is amazing. There is great shopping, fabulous concerts, inspiring theatre, great restaurants, stunning museums and delightful neighbourhoods. However, I think it is quite narrow minded and humourless of Torontonians to be so offended by an ad campaign which pokes fun at some of the less glamours aspects of city life.

An article by John Semley of the Torontoist claims that the campaign "prove(s) that Niagara can’t sell itself without digging on some cartoonish idea of Toronto. " Really? You can't just look at yourself and see a tiny bit of truth in these advertisements? Sure, not ever alleyway in Toronto is filled graffiti and vandalism but not every street you take in Niagara leads to a winery...only, like, 75% of them do.

Semley also states that "there’s more to Niagara than sipping wine amidst a bunch of trees, riding rented mountain bikes through largely unexciting trails, and trying to snap a family photo in front of the Falls while being hassled by a human being in an anthropomorphized Hershey’s Kiss costume", pretending as if Tourism Toronto does not do the exact same thing in their advertising campaigns by capitalizing on recognizable attractions such as the CN Tower, the Rogers Center and the Toronto Harbourfront. Of course the NIAGARA PARKS COMMISSION is focusing on specific, iconic locations....THOSE ARE THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY REPRESENT!

However, having said that, I do not appreciate being painted with the same brush as Niagara Falls. I work in stunning winery in Niagara on the Lake which is committed to premium wine making, responsible stewardship of the land and innovative design-not comparable with Clifton Hill. Much of our clientele (be it tours, licensees, corporate events or wine sales) originate in Toronto so why would it benefit us to "hurt the feelings" of those that are fans of our wines?

However, it's not all bad news, Marcus Gee of the Globe and Mail wrote "it would be nice if we could grow out of all that adolescent angst. Confident cities don’t throw a fit when some regional tourism group dares to imply they are less than perfect. Confident cities know in their bones that the strains of city life are more than outweighed by the rich variety of experience that big cities offer. As one Web commentator put it, “get over yourself,” Toronto."

Well said, sir.

I just think that the Torontonians offended by this campaign need to sit back and relax.

Maybe they're stressed by all the crime and graffiti...come to Niagara and have a glass of wine.

It's on us.

The Torontoist Article-http://torontoist.com/2010/07/come_to_niagara_try_the_whine.php

The Globe and Mail Article-http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/toronto/marcus-gee/thin-skinned-toronto-let-niagara-get-its-goat/article1647894/

"Times fun when you're having flies.” -Kermit the Frog

2010-07-20T22:17:00.004-04:00

Speaking of embracing our childishness...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7UmUX68KtE

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

2010-07-20T20:07:00.006-04:00

So, right now I am reading a fabulous book called "The Happiness Project". The book is based on the journey of a woman who spent a year "test-driving the wisdom of the ages, the current scientific studies, and the lessons from popular culture about how to be happy--from Aristotle to Martin Seligman to Thoreau to Oprah."

Basically, the author gave herself large goals each month for instance, one month was "Aim Higher" which was her goal related to her improving her career. Within that goal, she then breaks it down into more specific, measurable actions, i.e. launch a blog. (http://www.happiness-project.com/).

Currently I am about half way through the book so I can't give you a full review however, last night, in the chapter dedicated to "being serious about play" I came across an inspirational quote and concept that THRILLED ME!

In the chapter that discussed "being serious about play" the authors tasks included "finding more fun, taking time to be silly, going off the path and starting a collection." Within the "finding more fun" task the author very seriously considered the question "What is fun?" What is fun for me is not necessarily fun for my partner, family or friends, right? After some intense soul-searching, the author decided that what she most enjoyed, what made her happiest and what she considered to be 'fun' was reading "KidLit". Therefore, in a stroke of absolute brilliance the author decided to start a "KidLit" book club.

I am often embarrassed by my love of more childish things (i.e. Harry Potter, Disney etc.) and I spend a lot of time justifying my appreciation for them. When the author started her "KidLit" book club, she sent out an e-mail containing this quote;

"When I was ten, I read fairy tales in secret and would have been ashamed

if I had been found doing so. Now that I am fifty, I read them openly.

When I became a man I put away childish things, including the fear of

childishness and the desire to be very grown up."

-C.S. Lewis

HOW BRILLIANT IS THIS CONCEPT?

Many people spend their childhood wanting to be a "grown up", wanting freedom and respect.

I was never one of those children.

I never hid my love for "play" and my "passion for the pretend"...so why start now?

“Why is it that hate comes out so easily, yet...love? It gets trapped inside.”

2010-07-14T20:30:00.004-04:00

I think I may use the word "hate" too often.

It's convienent, the word has all the power of an expletive without all the drama.

I suppose I don't really understand the power behind the sentiment.

I use it to express frustration, anger, hurt and disappointment.

"I hate you."

"I hate her."

"I hate him."

"I hate this."

"Hate: the emotion of intense dislike; a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action."

Yikes.

When I use the word I certainly do not intend for it to be taken in the true meaning.

For instance:

I hate that my office doesn't have air conditioning.

I hate that my car uses so much gas.

I hate that my internet is so slow.

I hate that I don't have cable.

I hate Miley Cirus.

I hate traffic.

I hate...

Tonight when I used the word "hate" in reference to a person I really don't care for.

In response,the person I was speaking with said "I don't hate anyone..."

I was shocked.

"You don't hate anyone? What about Hitler?"

His extremely insightful (albeit, out of character) response was:

"Hate is what made Hitler who he was."

Oh.

Wow.

I wish I could say something warm and fuzzy here like:

"let's take all of the hate in the world and replace it with love"

but that's extremely unrealistic.

However, perhaps the first step is restricting the use of the word "hate" in our vocabulary.

Thoughts?

“Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.”

2010-07-13T19:52:00.009-04:00

Today was a difficult day.
Not for myself but for someone close to me.
Therefore, in order to restore my good mood, I have decided to pay tribute to Miss Gala Darling (my inspiration for starting a blog), by writing a "TILT" blog or "Things I love Tuesday".

Things I Loved this Tuesday, July 13th include:

Wearing my big girl shoes all day with relatively no pain. Yeah for me!
Being complimented on my ensemble numerous times in one day. (I was told that I looked "put together".)
Afternoon ice cream breaks.
Delightful and loving text messages from my best friend while she is en route to Nova Scotia.
Feeling more confident about my dating life. (One down, hundreds to go!)
Finding the perfect (Walt Disney) quote for a card.
People that are SO EXCITED about figuring out that they know my one of parents from high school.
Making a covert trip to the garbage chute in order to dispose of something that I know does not belong in the garbage chute (cue the "Mission Impossible" theme music).
Having a cute boy hold the door for me as I enter my apartment.
My apartment...just in general.
Turning on my digital frame and seeing my loved ones (past and present) smile up at me.
The woman at the grocery store who fawned over my reusable bag. She LOVED it!
Watching my bunny eat bananas. You will never see an animal enjoy something as much as he enjoys bananas.
This line from "National Treasure" "Do you know what the preservation room is for?" "Delicious jams and jellies?"
Waking up to this text message from my friend Tyler "Pretty sure Michael Eisner is waiting for the same plane as me." Uh, what? AMAZING!
My dear Norweigan friend who translated the words to "O Canada" into Norweigan and posted it on my Facebook wall. He also once told me that I was "a cupcake with pink icing and sprinkles."

What made you happy today?

"Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding."

2010-07-08T00:44:00.005-04:00

When I was in high school I got to see my best friend every single day. It was great. We knew every single nuance of the days, weeks, months ahead.

When I lived in Florida I got to see my best friend everyday. It was great. I knew where she was and who she was with morning, noon and night.

Now I live on my own and I don't get to see my best friend(s) everyday. It sucks. I don't know what they're thinking, what they're doing or who they're with.

Friendship is hard sometimes.

Now, effort has to be made....when it comes to this you have two options.

1) Assume the best, give them the benefit of the doubt, look at the history of your friendship and see that you were and are friends for a reason. Trust.

2) Assume the worst, project your insecurities onto their response, ignore the history of your friendship and close yourself off. Mistrust.

If you follow Option 1, your friendship may not always be perfect but any misunderstandings or disappointments will be dealt with from a place of love, acceptance and honesty.

If you follow Option 2, your friendship will definitely not be perfect, things will be blown out of proportion and mountains will be made out of mole hills.

In this day and age contact is often diluted or misinterpreted by Facebook, text messages, e-mails, MSN and BBM. You get a message that says one thing and you believe another. Why? Simple....you put a spin on it based on your feelings, your memories and your preconceived notions. I am at fault for this as much as anyone. I am aware.

But the important question is....how do you stop it? The internet was designed as a tool for sharing information...but how can the nuances of genuine emotion be communicated by a machine? I suppose it really depends on you...not only do you need to be extra clear in the message you are sending but you also need to be open to receiving a message without bias or pre-judgement. Once again, I am at fault for this as much as anyone. I am aware.

I feel as if I'm missing the mark. I have so many ideas, concepts, theories and feelings swirling around in my brain and I cannot grab them quickly enough and force them out the tips of my fingers.

In the end...what I really want to say is...

I am extremely grateful for the very few friends that I have whom can trust completely.

I trust them not to hurt me (intentionally).

I trust them to give me the benefit of the doubt.

I trust them to stick up for me.

I trust them to consider the history of our friendship before throwing me under the bus.

“I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people”

2010-07-06T21:35:00.007-04:00

I know, I've been gone for quite a long time.

However, the other day my "boss" (I use quotation marks because she is much more than just a "boss") forwarded me a quote that has been on my mind ever since and has inspired me to write once again.

Hooray for the 10 people who periodically read my blog!

"There are two ways of being creative.

One can sing and dance.

Or one can create an environment in which singers and dancers flourish."

For someone who has spent the past seven years of their life going to school and trying to figure out where they fit into this big, scary world...clarification like this is priceless.

Clarification of my purpose.

Clarification of my career path.

Clarification of my place in the world.

And not just clarification...but inspiration.

A motto to live by.

As a person who identifies strongly with both the left and right side of the brain, my challenge has always been how to find something-a job, a calling, a profession, a career, a goal-to do that contributes to the greater good. How do I find a job that I enjoy, a job that challenges me and a job that makes a difference and leaves a legacy?

I started my educational journey thinking I would be a teacher, specifically a drama teacher. I would sculpt the minds of young children and inspire them to be better, kinder human beings. However, things didn't turn out that way...but I still wish to inspire people and now I know that I can do that in a number of ways, both in my personal and professional life.

I am extremely happy in my new job. It is the perfect balance of frivolity and conscientiousness. I may only stay with the company for a year...I may stay with them for 10 years, but at least I will know that I started my career in a place that is making a contribution to the coming generations.

Go forth, friends.

Learn. Inspire. Conquer.

"Hope you like pancakes, Norway"

2010-02-21T21:12:00.004-05:00

Some of the best Olympic commercials.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e54EpbcK97o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGUnZsXW9Sw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOevTBSmC4o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HPjlMIpnbo&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBpgASKC8kE

I also just saw an AMAZING Tim Hortons commercial that brought me to tears but I couldn't find it on youtube.

It is a man buying winter coats for his family who are just immigrating to Canada.

He meets them at the airport with two Tim Hortons coffees in hand, says "Welcome to Canada", gives them their coats and takes them out into snow for the first time.

So touching.

If you can find it on youtube, post it in the comment box.

"Other things may change us, but we start and end with family."

2010-02-21T20:04:00.003-05:00

I'm famous!

http://www.contrariwise.org/2010/02/15/we-start-and-end-with-family/

But, before the sun sets on her 16th birthday, she shall prick her finger, on the spindle of a spinning wheel - AND DIE!

2010-02-21T19:19:00.004-05:00

Would you like to meet the people who saved Disney? If so then you should check out this film.

Waking Sleeping Beauty

"By the mid-eighties, Walt Disney's fabled animation studios had fallen on hard times. The staff was polarized between newcomers hungry to innovate and old-timers who wouldn't relinquish control. These conditions had produced a series of box office flops and led to pessimistic forecasts. Maybe the best days of animation were over. Maybe the public didn't care. If you expected the situation to improve, you probably believed in fairy tales.

Waking Sleeping Beauty isn't a fairy tale but rather the true story of how Disney regained its magic with a staggering output of hits – Who Framed Roger Rabbit, The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, The Lion King and more – over a ten-year period.

Director Don Hahn and producer Peter Schneider bring an insider's knowledge to this comeback. They were among the young Turks at Disney who produced some of its biggest sensations. Hahn's documentary offers a fascinating perspective on what took place within the creative ranks as well as among the leadership team of Michael D. Eisner, Jeffrey Katzenberg and Roy Disney (the nephew of Walt). The process wasn't always pretty. Hahn (who still works for Disney) brings a refreshing candour to describing ego battles, cost overruns and failed experiments that others might prefer to forget. During times of tension, the animators' favourite form of attack was to draw nasty caricatures of their bosses. Hahn puts several memorable ones on display and marshals a vast array of interviews, home movies, internal memos and unseen footage. Anyone with an appetite for Hollywood gossip will relish this dish.

Animation lovers, in turn, will savour the rich history that gives credit where it's due to the many writers, artists and composers who created the Disney phenomenon. The documentary even includes key figures who famously left the company, such as Don Bluth, John Lasseter and Tim Burton. At one time, children imagined that Walt Disney's signature meant a film was the creation of one man. This is a more grown-up portrayal that reveals the collaborative experience in all its complexity."

-http://tiff.net/filmsandschedules/films/wakingsleepingbeauty

Check out the trailer here!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUKELKkOuYk

"somehow it didn't seem like war at all, at all, at all..."

2010-02-10T22:37:00.004-05:00

Eric Peterson as Billy Bishop

I am of the opinion that all theatre should tell a story, especially Canadian theatre. Having had the privilege of working and living with people from all over this great country I know that Canadians are, above all, story tellers. (Specifically Canadians from the East Coast-they have truly been given the gift of gab, even if sometimes you can't understand them). We regale friends and family with tales of drinking, hardships and adventures, big and small.

It is clear that the Canadian play "Billy Bishop Goes to War" follows in this grand tradition of story telling. The play, written in the 1970's by John Gray and Eric Peterson, has been remounted all over Canada both by Gray and Peterson and by theatre companies across Canada. A re-telling of Bishop's heroic exploits during WWI left me both moved and ashamed that I did not already know the story of this great Canadian.

Afterwards I had the honour of meeting Eric Peterson. A touchstone of Canadian theatre and a story teller through and through. He spoke candidly with my Grandfather (who had his "wings" pinned on by the real Billy Bishop before WWII) and received my compliments graciously (as I held back tears, because I have a soft spot for old men). It was an experience that was both uniquely Canadian and deeply moving and one I will not soon forget.

If you get the chance, I highly recommend seeing "Billy Bishop Goes to War" with Eric Peterson and John Gray.

I know, I know...another Lost post...

2010-02-05T20:40:00.002-05:00

Please forgive me....but this is amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-1qzelSWpE&feature=player_embedded#

Okay, I will stop now. I promise.

TOMORROW!

2010-02-01T20:26:00.004-05:00

I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THE LAST SEASON STARTS TOMORROW!

Check out this EPIC chess themed promo!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mzUYz6m9qE

Lost. Season 6. February 2nd, 2010.

2010-01-28T22:18:00.002-05:00

Enjoy a little teaser...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKcKtjrL5bc&feature=PlayList&p=46651AA8D8664370&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=19

...I am BEYOND stoked.

....they all dress the same and act the same and conform in their non-conformity....

2010-01-26T11:25:00.006-05:00

"Hipsters are the friends who sneer when you cop to liking Coldplay. They're the people who wear t-shirts silk-screened with quotes from movies you've never heard of and the only ones in America who still think Pabst Blue Ribbon is a good beer. They sport cowboy hats and berets and think Kanye West stole their sunglasses. Everything about them is exactingly constructed to give off the vibe that they just don't care."

~Time Magazine, 2009

Check out this article and perhaps it will help you understand the mystery of the hipster.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/julia-plevin/whos-a-hipster_b_117383.html

“Preach the Gospel at all times and when necessary use words.” -St Francis of Assisi

2010-01-26T09:33:00.005-05:00

"People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them." ~Dave Barry

Lately I have become increasingly frustrated with people using social networking sites as a way to promote their religious beliefs. Posting links to articles on the Vatican's website or essays about the sins of homosexuality is, in my opinon, not appropriate on a website that was designed to help people keep in touch with friends and family.

I am sure that there is somewhere in cyberland that is much more appropriate for this type of disucssion-blogs for instance, or discussion forums on online religious communities. Not only will your ideas be more seriously considered and discussed but you will, most likely, not run the risk of offending people who are on the site just to keep in touch with their friends.

I am pretty sure that Jesus would like technology (he invented it, after all) but I don't think he wants his words to be misspelled, misinterpreted and plastered all over peoples FB status' in your misguided attempt to convert your Facebook Friends from sinners to saints.

"I'm not religious, but I like God and he likes me."

~Tony Kushner, Angels in America

“Faith is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted in spite of your changing moods”

2010-01-18T22:47:00.004-05:00

A few words on faith...

When I speak about faith I don't mean faith in God. Faith in God is something that I posses but I know it may not be your "cup of tea".

So what am I talking about?

When I was in high school I had a friend who would constantly say "Don't worry, the universe will provide" and that always made me feel nice. Like the universe would magically produce a blanket when I was cold or food when I was hungry. However, after a while I saw that it really wasn't the universe that was providing these things for me, it was people (more specifically, my parents).

So what should we have faith in?

Well, of course the obvious answer is people. We should have faith in people. Our friends, our family, our lovers. People are what makes this world a happy place. However, after so many broken hearts and so much devastation in the world at the hands of "people" it is difficult to believe in them anymore, isn't it? What about all the murderers and thieves, the crooked cops and the abusive partners?

It is very easy to lose faith in people.

However, what about the time your best friend sent you a care package when you were living away from home?

Or the time that your parents came out to a play you were starring in and cheered extra loud?

Or what about the person who holds the door open for you at school?

Or the man in front of you at Tim Hortons that pays for your coffee?

Or when a teacher told you they were proud of you?

Or when a stranger said "Bless you" after you sneezed?

What about all of those little things that happen every single day that you look past? The things that you forget about as quickly as they happen.

I believe that these little things can save your faith.

Your faith in God. (if you so choose)

Your faith in the Universe.

Your faith in man.

Because really.

It's all the same.

"It's my party and I'll cry if I want to!"

2010-01-17T14:23:00.004-05:00

Today I was at the gym on the treadmill watching a program called "Party Mama's" on Slice. The premise of this show is that it "follows outgoing mothers as they plan over-the-top extravaganza parties for their children. Gone are the days of pin the tail on the donkey and pizza parties, now it’s time to supersize these events. Party Mamas is a jam-packed, nerve-filled, triple-latte-paced ride through the lives of outrageous and energetic mothers who pull out all the stops to throw “the best party ever for their little darlings.” This is a series where “too big” and “too much” are considered a plus."

Gross.

It is a disgusting program which makes me question the validity of my current field of study. Is this all it is going to be? Planning parties for over inflated trophy wives? However, this episode was EXTRA special because it featured my small town of Brantford, Ontario and a "Party Mama" named Tracey. Not only did the episode feature stunning vistas of our beautiful town (please note sarcasm) it also featured Mayor Mike Hancock giving the woman an award of recognition in our City Hall.

I am HORRIFIED that our Mayor agreed to be a part of this revolting show and perpetuated this RIDICULOUS charade. Clearly most of the show was set up for the purpose of making 'good television'-from the moment she fired the first party planner, to forcing her poor uncoordinated daughter to take dance lessons for her 'grand entrance' and the crocodile tears as mother and daughter reconciled just in time for the party. However the mayors involvement lends validity (albeit, only a small amount) to all of this and shows our community as a place where this sort of behaviour is not only tolerated but REWARDED!

You should be ashamed of yourself Mayor Hancock. What you did was not in the best interest of our city nor was it in your best interest. You have portrayed our city as one filled with insane, unrealistic, unfeeling parents who do not give a shit about the welfare of their children. Speaking of which, the Party Mama "Tracey" (who claims that she 'runs the town' and yet I've never heard of her or her organization) should also be ashamed of herself. Even if everything she did was just for show and there was no harm to her daughter, she has harmed the integrity of our city.

It is not often that I feel to need to stand up for my community. For a long time I made jokes about our failing downtown and the painted store-fronts along with everyone else. However, over the last few years Brantford has been pulling up it's boot straps and making changes...I just hope this doesn't set us back.

"Every great film should seem new every time you see it."

2009-12-23T16:38:00.003-05:00

The films of 2009. Enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5bc8zFUiQE&feature=player_embedded

"A new baby is like the beginning of all things-wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities."

2009-11-28T23:13:00.005-05:00

www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnMewMRKnPw

"Imagine there's no heaven...."

2009-11-27T12:26:00.005-05:00

This show has helped me fall in love with music again. Let it do the same for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rxG1eGlOhMg

“Unless I accept my virtues, I most certainly will be overwhelmed by my faults.”

2009-11-21T21:56:00.004-05:00

Sometimes I find that my thoughts can shrink to the size of the space I am inhabiting. I feel them pressing down on me like invisible walls, moving slowly and yet causing me to double over onto myself...questioning my actions, my opinions and myself as a person.

When this happens I believe that you must get outside your space before the shrunken thoughts get bigger than you and end up suffocating. Only when you remove yourself from that space can you gain perspective and see the world for how big, beautiful, scary and alive it is. The worlds reality puts everything in perspective for you very quickly.

I lived such a small life today.

Eventually I forced myself to leave my space to get a little human interaction and stop myself from drowing in drama and self pity.

And that saved me.

"If you have only one smile in you give it to the people you love."

2009-11-19T22:58:00.005-05:00

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies

I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size

But when I start to tell them

They think I'm telling lies.

I say,

It's in the reach of my arms

The span of my hips,

The stride of my step,

The curl of my lips.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

I walk into a room

Just as cool as you please,

And to a man,

The fellows stand or

Fall down on their knees.

Then they swarm around me,

A hive of honey bees.

I say,

It's the fire in my eyes

And the flash of my teeth,

The swing of my waist,

And the joy in my feet.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Men themselves have wondered

What they see in me.

They try so much

But they can't touch

My inner mystery.

When I try to show them,

They say they still can't see.

I say

It's in the arch of my back,

The sun of my smile,

The ride of my breasts,

The grace of my style.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Now you understand

Just why my head's not bowed.

I don't shout or jump about

Or have to talk real loud.

When you see me passing

It ought to make you proud.

I say,

It's in the click of my heels,

The bend of my hair,

The palm of my hand,

The need of my care,

'Cause I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

~Maya Angelou

“Conflict is inevitable, but combat is optional.”

2009-11-16T22:11:00.003-05:00

A New Concept that I Came Across in my Studies...

Groupthink is a type of thought exhibited by group members who try to minimize conflict and reach consensus without critically testing, analyzing and evaluating ideas. Individual creativity, uniqueness, and independent thinking are lost in the pursuit of group cohesiveness, as are the advantages of reasonable balance in choice and thought that might normally be obtained by making decisions as a group.

Eight symptoms indicative of Groupthink

Illusions of invulnerability creating excessive optimism and encouraging risk taking.
Rationalizing warnings that might challenge the group's assumptions.
Unquestioned belief in the morality of the group, causing members to ignore the consequences of their actions.
Stereotyping those who are opposed to the group as weak, evil, biased, spiteful, disfigured, impotent, or stupid.
Direct pressure to conform placed on any member who questions the group, couched in terms of "disloyalty".
Self censorship of ideas that deviate from the apparent group consensus.
Illusions of unanimity among group members, silence is viewed as agreement.
Mind guards — self-appointed members who shield the group from dissenting information.

If I had known all of this a few years ago, the most painful summer of my life would've been much more endurable.

“The real and lasting victories are those of peace, and not of war.”

2009-11-10T22:26:00.004-05:00

Please thank a Veteran today.

I will be thanking my Grandfather, who worked as a navigator during WWII. He jumped from a plane to save his life and ended up in the prison of war camp Stalag Luft I until the war ended. The POW camp was especially difficult for him because he had a German last name but was fighting for the Canadians.

I will also be thanking my Nana, who was a Sargent in WWII. She worked on Canadian soil but was every bit as brave and committed as those who went overseas.

I wish I could still call and thank my Papa, who taught pilots how to fly the Harvard aircraft during WWII. Just before he died he was able to have one last flight in his beloved Harvard and when he got home he added that flight to his log book from WWII.

In Flanders fields the poppies blow

Between the crosses, row on row,

That mark our place; and in the sky

The larks, still bravely singing, fly

Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,

Loved, and were loved, and now we lie

In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:

To you from failing hands we throw

The torch; be yours to hold it high.

If ye break faith with us who die

We shall not sleep, though poppies grow

In Flanders fields.

— Lt.-Col. John McCrae (1872 - 1918)

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye.”

2009-11-09T10:05:00.004-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/DisneyParks#p/u/10/rKSQjNP2QIs

Oh Miss Piggy, you're my hero.

Welcome to the Family!

2009-10-27T18:48:00.004-04:00

Check out the welcome party for Disney's newest princess, Princess Tiana!

http://www.youtube.com/user/disneyparks?blend=3&ob=4#p/u

The most beautiful proposal ever...

2009-10-26T21:21:00.002-04:00

http://www.bakerella.com/wedding-cake-pops/

"Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it."

2009-10-20T20:49:00.002-04:00

http://operationbeautiful.com/

"Many hands make light work."

2009-10-19T16:56:00.004-04:00

What is your role within a team? A group? A committee?

How do you operate? What are your natural tendency?

According to Belbin, there are three orientations in each group and within those orientations there are three clusters of behaviour.

First there are Action Oriented Roles

The Shaper: This person is challenging, dynamic and thrives on pressure however they also sometimes steamroll others ideas.
The Implementer: This person is disciplined, reliable and efficient however they can also be conservative and inflexible.
The Complete Finisher: This person is always on time and searches out errors however they can also be anxious, critical and they will not delegate tasks.

Then there are People-Oriented Roles

The Coordinator: This person is mature, confident and keeps order however they can seem manipulative.
The Teamworker: This person is mild, diplomatic and a good listener however they can also be indecisive and they avoid confrontation.
The Resource Investigator: This person is extroverted, enthusiastic however they can be bored easily.

And finally, the Cerebral Roles

The Plant: This person is creative, unorthadox and solves problems however they also tend to ignore reality.
The Monitor Evaluator: This person is sobering and strategic however they also lack drive and do not motivate well.
The Specialist: This person is single-minded, dedicated and have vital knowledge and skills however they can also have a very narrow focus and offer limited contributions.

In different situations you will play different roles depending on the strenghts and weaknesses of the other members of your group.

Look at all of these roles? Where do you see yourself? Where have you been in the past? Where would you LIKE to be?

"Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot little puppies."

2009-10-16T15:03:00.002-04:00

http://www.raincitystory.com/flash/screenclean.swf

I am *so* getting a pug when I grow up!

"Always tell the truth. That way, you don't have to remember what you said."

2009-10-16T14:28:00.004-04:00

"How did you say something...that wasn't?"

The other night I went to see "The Invention of Lying". I knew absolutley nothing about the premise of the film, just that it featured Ricky Gervais and Jennifer Garner. From the little I had heard I thought that it would be more artistic and theoretical, sort of snap shots of peoples lives that had been changed by lying. Instead I saw an extremely moving (and at some times, depressing) love story about two people who were trying to overcome their respective preconcieved notions about dating. Should you be with someone who is your genetic, intellectual and professional match? Someone that you can make intellengent and attractive children with? Or should you be with someone that makes you happy, regardless of all that other stuff?

However, the most interesting part of the movie is the setting...living in a world where lying just...isn't. It's not an option, it's not on the menu, it's not on the radar....it just isn't. The first scene completely blows your mind and it takes a while to get used to. It is a painful reminder of how many little lies we tell every day. It makes you realize that little white lies have become the lubricant of our society.

How would you make it through your day if you had to answer the question "how are you?" honestly...EVERY TIME SOMEONE ASKED? If you had to answer every single question honestly how would you date? Or conduct a job interview? Or talk with your family?

Think about it!

"You're best friend Barry has a brother Larry...in five days from now he's gonna marry!"

2009-10-16T14:16:00.003-04:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3lt9zfBxbg

"Well done is better than well said." Benjamin Franklin

2009-10-15T10:12:00.003-04:00

Here's a scenario: You are at the grocery store on a Sunday afternoon and having trouble with your debit card. You have a cart full of groceries and no cash. What do you do? You look over at the next line and you see your regular BMO teller paying for his or her groceries. You say, "Hey Bob. I'm havin' some issues with my bank card over here". Bob comes over to the till, tries to fix the problem but can't...Bob then and offers you $60 from his own pocket?!?! "Oh Bob, that's not necessary" and yet he insists. The result: you can now purchase your groceries (while only being minimally embarrassed) and you feel great about banking with BMO.

According to BMO policy, employees of the bank are encouraged to reach into their wallets and offer money to customers who are encountering problems. The bank employees are then reimbursed and the money is withdrawn from the customers account.

Genius or insanity?

Are they asking to much from of their employees?

Thoughts?

Happy Birthday to my favorite Place on Earth!

2009-10-13T17:18:00.003-04:00

http://disneyparks.disney.go.com/blog/2009/10/a-model-day-at-the-park/

"God gave us two ears and one mouth for a reason...listen twice as much as you speak."

2009-10-07T18:37:00.005-04:00

A few thoughts on communication and listening...

Normally when men listen to women they don't want to listen, they just want to solve. They are not particularly interested in listening to your problem and offering support, they want to cut you off mid sentence and offer solutions to your problems. In my family, it is the opposite, my Mother always wants to solve my problems before I've finished explaining them and my Dad listens to me and sympathizes offering a "sometimes, life just sucks" every now and then. Sometimes you just need to allow a conversation to run its course before you interject.

“To listen well is as powerful a means of communication and influence as to talk well.”

One of the reasons that we are not great listeners in this day and age is because we have become accustomed to communicating over the Internet and we now feel that we need to respond to everything with words. One of my biggest pet pevees when talking to someone over MSN or FB chat is when they get offended if you don't respond to every message they send...even if the message doesn't include a question or a statement that requires a response. OR if they respond with LOL....LOL is NOT a response! The art of conversation is slowly dying and people are just retreating to their huts to live without human interaction. I'm not saying that I am better than anyone else, I hate talking on the phone and going out for coffee because I hate awkward silences. I would much rather get to know someone via e-mail because you can be a little more careful and guarded about what you reveal. However, I am not a fan of internet lingo and I do prefer that you speak in complete sentences with proper grammar (another thing that internet dating has taught me).

"The more elaborate our means of communication, the less we communicate."

But I digress...another really interesting concept is non-verbal communications. It was the first way that people learned how to communicate at the beginning of time and it was also the first type of communication we learn as children. However, in school we are only taught how to interpret written or verbal communication and less than 1% of college graduates have been able to take a course that focuses on non-verbal communication...perhaps that is why we have to deal with so many misunderstandings every day. You also have to consider the fact that non-verbal communication is much more powerful than communication because it is harder to censor. We are always emoting non-verbally, in every situation!

"What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say.”

My first NSFW post!

2009-10-07T18:31:00.003-04:00

Yes, that is Prince Eric from the Little Mermaid.

Check out the rest at http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/39849010.html

....a love letter to no one...

2009-10-05T17:01:00.001-04:00

http://www.aloveletterforyou.com/?page_id=198

"I'm very definitely a woman and I enjoy it."

2009-09-29T11:32:00.002-04:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"Mirror, mirror on the wall...."

2009-09-28T09:22:00.005-04:00

Because who doesn't love a class that encourages looking up fun video's on Youtube.

Enjoy!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MBBr-a2KnM&feature=related

“I can't go on anymore bad dates. I would rather be home alone than out with some guy who sells socks on the internet.”

2009-09-26T16:34:00.004-04:00

So, as embarrassing as it is to admit this...I have signed up for an Internet dating site. No I will not tell you the name of the site so you can look up my profile and mock me. But, I will tell you that it has been an interesting experience.

I have only been on the site for one week and have had about 10 guys contact me. One of the guys seems pretty cool, one turned out to be a bit of a perv and most of them aren't really my type. However, I realized during this process that I am a bit pickier than I thought and I defiantly have a particular type. I love myself a dorky, awkward, skinny boy with dark rimmed glasses that loves movies, music, television and video games but he has to have a good sense of himself and a wicked sense of humour. I'm not into guys who loves sports, cars, working out, tight shirts, gold chains, beer or hunting. Oh, and I'm not really into the whole bald with a goatee look, I don't know why but most of the guys who have messaged me have that combo going on (I know that seems shallow but I've got to be honest). I don't want you to look like every other guy with a ball cap and an abercrombie t-shirt, I just want someone who is original and passionate about something.

I also had one thing reaffirmed for me....I don't like clingy/needy guys. I don't like a guy who puts it all out there right on the first date. I like a little mystery, a little chase, a bit of a hunt. As long as you're honest and straightforward once we get together, I don't mind a bit of a with-holding dance during the courtship. I don't need to be in constant communication with you at all times (as I said, I have a very full life) but a nice "I'm thinking about you" or "I saw this and it reminded me of you" text is nice. I like somethings to be left to the imagination...it keeps it interesting.

I also realized that, although I am lonely sometimes, I've been alone for a long time and I don't need a man in my life to be happy. I have a very full life with lots of friends, an amazing family, a new career on the horizon and interests that I don't want to give up so that I can appear more desirable to a man. We all have our 'desperate moments' but it's like shopping, I don't want to settle for something that doesn't fit properly just because I need something to wear.

"Do you believe in computer dating?"

"Only if the computers really love each other."

-Groucho Marx

"....this too shall pass...."

2009-09-12T23:05:00.005-04:00

I am having a little bit of trouble adjusting to living alone again. Of course, for all intents and purposes I lived alone while I was in Florida but I always knew that friends were just a few steps away. And even though I have some really great friends in here I still find myself struggling. I'm doing a few things to distract myself...

1) is baking...a new and delicious hobby. I've made vanilla cupcakes (from scratch for the very first time), banana bread and sugar cookies so far. The only problem with this is that...then somebody has to eat all this stuff!

2) I've become a little obsessed with decorating my apartment/rearranging furniture. I am trying to surround myself with things that I love and things that make me happy. Therefore anytime I am sad I can just look up and focus on a chandelier (real or cut out) a candle, a picture or a pillow.

3) is finding new and exciting blogs to explore...I blame my new obsession on Gala Darling who inspired me to start this blog as well as continuing to search for beauty and light in this crazy world we call 'the internets'.

For example...http://bakerella.blogspot.com/, http://www.ilovelolliblog.com/, http://peacockfeatherevents.blogspot.com/, http://offbeatbride.com/.

Enjoy! And if you have any suggestions for me...I'm all ears!

"everything i ever needed to know in life i learned from killing smart people and eating their brains."

2009-08-26T12:24:00.003-04:00

Generally I am not a fan of Zombie movies (perhaps that is why I don't have a boyfriend) but this looks like a good one.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-cIjPOJdFM

Enjoy!

"I have decided to create a supplementary persona named Francois Dillinger."

2009-08-24T21:02:00.004-04:00

Because two Michael Cera's are better than one...enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=109DbfWQvf4

"And every song sounds like a love song, and every kiss feels like your first..."

2009-08-24T01:19:00.003-04:00

It is difficult to write eloquently about someone who writes eloquently for a living.

So instead of writing an entry about how incredibly inspiring, talented, kind and gentle this man is...I will link you to his website so you may find out for yourself.

http://www.craigcardiff.com/fr_index.cfm

You're welcome.

"...don't worry about anyone else, the best people are themselves..."

2009-08-23T01:36:00.005-04:00

i see them everywhere, wondering what's next
and i think it's kind of fun seein' them walk around downtown

and they got the new band records

and they want everyone to check 'em

want everyone to see that they did it first

want everyone to know

want everyone to care

but it's fun when we don't care, so i tell them like this

oh no, oh no, here we go again

it's the life of the perfect scenester

and now they listen to emotional music

when they used to like punk rock

or maybe now they like junk rock

and swore they never liked punk

and they always talk about shows

but i never see 'em

and when i do they're just bummin'

still haven't figured out that

and we just can't wait for what they got next

and they do it for the girls

yes they do it for the girls

but it's all the wrong girls in control of them

don't worry about anyone else

the best people are themselves
and we don't think you know yourself

“Everything popular is wrong.”

2009-08-23T01:12:00.004-04:00

I find it intriguing that no matter how old you are or how secure you think you've become with yourself...you can still be made to feel horribly uncool. For the past few years I have been toying with the idea of fitting in with a certain crowd. I've observed these folks from a far, hanging around on the outskirts of their lives, making tiny changes in my personal style and attitude to bring me closer to their 'cool'. However, tonight, being surrounded by these mythical creatures I realized that they are no cooler than me. They are just people, in fact, up close they seem to be shockingly insecure and dysfunctional people. They might wear different clothes or listen to different music but what it boils down to is that we are all just black coffee. We all start out the same but its what you add that makes it different, not better, or worse...just different.

"He's gonna marry me."

2009-08-21T21:10:00.004-04:00

THE GUIDE TO BEING SO CHOICE

(aka How Sloane Peterson from Ferris Bueller’s Day Off Taught me how to be an Awesome Girlfriend.)

http://bonerparty.tumblr.com/post/162461458/condicondi-the-guide-to-being-so-choice-aka-how

P.S. Yes I know I hugely ripped this recommendation off of Gala Darling but it was TOO brilliant.

“Where words fail, music speaks.”

2009-08-16T19:09:00.003-04:00

Thank you for giving me the gift of music and the knowledge that I possess a talent that is more important than I'll ever know.

Patricia Marlene Bohemier: April 9, 1946 – August 17th, 1999

"Ten years ago today, It seems like yesterday, God shone His light, He set your spirit free, Your unwavering courage, Your calming and gentle ways, The tomorrow’s you will never see, Your legacy was your faith, We cherish each and everyday, These memories we have of you."

"All women are flirts, but some are restrained by shyness, and others by sense."

2009-08-07T23:50:00.003-04:00

Sitting by the pool today I observed a pair of teenagers flirting. Despite the fact that the girl seemed EXTREMELY annoying, it was entertaining to watch her attempt to woo this young man. In a pool, surrounded by various family members, she made awkward conversation and did not stray more than three feet from her 'beloved'. The young man also made his efforts by picking up the poor gal and throwing her into the pool...numerous times.

It was awkward and brave and inspirational.

Sometimes I wish I was still able to put myself out there like that but after being hurt, embaressed and humiliated so many times...*sigh* I applaud you, young lady.

"You see us as you want to see us..."

2009-08-06T20:22:00.008-04:00

Dear Mr. Vernon,

We accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was we did wrong. What we did *was* wrong. But we think you're crazy to make us write an essay telling you who we think we are. What do you care? You see us as you want to see us - in the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. You see us as a brain, an athlete, a basket case, a princess and a criminal. Correct? That's the way we saw each other at 7:00 this morning. We were brainwashed.

R.I.P John Hughes

Who's excited to go to Edmonton???

2009-08-06T19:35:00.003-04:00

"If you're going to San Francisco, be sure to wear a flower in your hair."

2009-08-06T03:36:00.004-04:00

Hawaii is beautiful. So beautiful that it is hard to believe that it is a part of the United States of America. The islands are rich with culture and tradition and ,although there are parts that are undeniably tourist-y, for the most part Hawaii is a vivacious and stunning state. It's impossible not to be intrigued and inspired by the traditions and practices of the islands...this is my favorite one so far...enjoy!

Wearing a flower in your hair...

"On the left ear it means you are married, engaged or with someone, on the right ear you are free. The Hawaiian name for flower is "pua" ( pronounced "poo-ah" ). Hibiscus is our state flower and its Hawaiian name is"aloalo" pronounced "ah-low-ah-low". For the plumeria it is "melia" pron."may-lee-ah", but melia also means quiet ocean. As for Gardenia it is "kiele" pron. "key-eh-lay". Women also wear puakinikini flowers and others. I would say the most common is the Plumeria."

"You're terribly late Alice....naughty."

2009-07-25T12:45:00.002-04:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiPR6kA4_iU

And now for something completely different...

2009-07-24T22:27:00.002-04:00

I am absolutley doing this at my wedding.

http://http//www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-94JhLEiN0

"Very little is needed to make a happy life."

2009-07-23T23:24:00.009-04:00

These are just a few things that made me smile today...

The world is a carousel of colours...beautiful, wonderful colours!" For a video of a presentation about the new fireworks/water/light/amazing-ness show at Disney's California adventure, check out...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfyoqR1lX_Y&feature=player_embedded
Photo's of the new 'Alice in Wonderland' film by Tim Burton with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1014759/mediaindex
Getting e-mails from Tarina Tarantino about her STUNNING jewlery. http://www.tarinatarantino.com/
Finding my very favorite bra's on the internet and ordering it in multiples! (I am not going to post a link for this, that would be weird).
Buying fluffly new hot pink towels, fabulous shower curtains and delightful new sheets at discount prices!
Watching episodes of 'Ghost Hunters' on youtube.com http://www.youtube.com/user/Presidentl1#play/user/91EDC9BB721EC655/9/aAFjiYKfzRc
Packing up furniture to move to my new apartment!
The thought of going to ikea tomorrow to buy this!http://www.ikea.com/ca/en/catalog/products/10121228

"Well internets..."

2009-07-21T14:44:00.003-04:00

As I currently have no life and I am basically spending every waking moment on the 'internets' I have stumbled across a delightful little nugget called 'sxephil'.

Basically my perfect man, 'sxephil' or Phillip DeFranco, is a young man with his own youtube channel on which he posts a show each day discussing politics, media, celebrities and the worlds most rediculous news stories.

However, when researching 'sxephil' for this post I discovered that this poor kid is not particularily popular with his internet collegues. Most of the websites that I found described him as a douche bag and 'Dane Cook wanna be'. I think that it is extremely unfortunate that, while attempting to educate the masses, this kid must deal with people who have nothing else to do but criticize.

But I digress...if you're interested, look up Phillip DeFranco on youtube.com

"Oh this is a 'Dear Diary' moment."

2009-07-19T20:54:00.003-04:00

Today when I was cleaning my room I came across the journals I've kept since 2000. Part of me finds these journals absolutley hilarious. Being concerned about boys whose names I can't remember now, stressing about money and mulling over future plans. I was very surprised that so many of of the statements in the journals were so decisive, so clear, so definate and so...wrong. I seemed so sure of myself. So sure that I was going to do theatre for the rest of my life. So sure that is where I belonged. So sure that each fight with a friend was the end of the world. So sure that 'this time' I was 'in love', that 'this time' it was different. So sure that one particular person was the enemy, the root of all evil, the cause of all my problems.

Over the past year I have evolved from writing in my journal to sharing my thoughts on this blog. I still write in my journal every now and then because there are things that no one who reads this blog really want to know about. Of course there are also things that I don't want them to know about and things that I don't want to be seen by internet surfing randoms. Part of me misses the total freedom of writing in a journal, knowing that no one will read it and that 'comments' aren't encouraged.

Despite being absolutley mortified by some of the thoughts and comments that I have put on paper, I think that my old journals are very valuable. Not only do they allow me to re-evaluate my decisions, opinions and mistakes but they also inspire me to continue to learn about myself. Self improvement is something that I am very passionate about and in these journals I have gathered so many thoughts and theories (my own and others) that will continue to aid me in my journey of self discovery. The journals are filled with quotes from books I have written, movies and plays I have seen, songs I have listened to and people I've met. Every now and then there is a random artistic expression of my joy, frustration, confusion etc.

I know that, despite how painful it is to revisit this past, sometimes it is worth so that you may improve your future.

"You can still live on that shimmering line between your old thinking and your new understanding, always in a state of learning."

The World Funniest Website

2009-07-17T12:58:00.005-04:00

A few gems from my new favorite website...www.awkwardfamilyphotos.com

Where do you even find suits like this?

There are just so many things wrong with this picture.

Fail.

Gone, but not forgotten.

It's in The Constitution, bitches.

An extremely frightening use of Photoshop...at least I hope it is.

Things I Love...A through Zed (not Zee..Zed!)

2009-07-16T22:02:00.010-04:00

A is for...the Ace of Cakes with my future husband, Duff Goldman. I don't care if he is Jewish. I would convert.

B is for...BETSEY JOHNSON!

C is for...Chandeliers, Canada, Cupcakes.

D is for...Disney World. C'mon now. What else would it be? (Although 'dogs' came a close second).

E is for...Erin, my best friend since forever!

F is for...family...my family is amazing.

G is for...gardening. When I was a kid I used to wake up early on Saturdays not to watch cartoons but to watch gardening shows. And I asked for a pond for my 13th birthday. I was a weird kid.

H is for...Harry Potter. All the books, all the movies, all the culture. Everything about it.

I is for...The I-75. It either means I am going to Disney World or I am coming home after a year of working there...both GREAT things!

J is for...Johnny Depp. He is handsome and brilliant and well spoken.

K is for...kissing. 'Nuff said.

L is for..."Lost". Best. Show. Ever.

M is for...music. Duh.

N is for...my Nana. Pretty much the most amazing person on the planet.

O is for...old journals. Reading your old journals is one of the most enlightening, embaressing, hilarious and frustrating thing in the world.

P is for...Port Dover. A beautiful town on the shores of Lake Erie.

Q is for...quiet time. Sometimes I really like to be alone and read a book and listen to some music. That is why I am so excited to be moving into my own one bedroom apartment in a month.

R is for...Roger, my bunny rabbit. Get it? Roger Rabbit?

S is for...Sara, my other best friend. Basically the most thoughtful person on the planet.

T is for...Tim Hortons. Especially after living in the United States for a year and not being able to get it!

U is for...underwear. More specifically cute underwear.

V is for...Victoria and Alberts. A very swanky restaurant in the Grand Floridian Resort at Disney World. Worth every single dollar of your $150.

W is for...The Weakerthans. My favorite band...ever.

X is for..."xoxo" at the end of all of my text messages, cards, letters and e-mails.

Y is for..."You've Got Mail"...it's a sappy romantic comedy but I love it.

Z is for...being back in a country where people pronounce this properly. It's Zed, not Zee, ZED!

People are always trying to tell me 'change is good'. But all that it means is something you didn't want to happen, has happened.

2009-07-16T18:07:00.006-04:00

When you move back home and you are surrounded by places, things and people that you've known all your life...change seems like a much angrier beast. Change is something that has come in, while you were away, and closed your favorite restaurant, moved your ex-boyfriend to another city, gotten your friends engaged and convinced your best friend to buy a house. How dare it come in and change your whole life around while you were gone?! And how are you supposed to adjust to all of this? Isn't it bad enough that you have to learn how to use the new microwave that your parents bought and go to a new hair salon? Hasn't this beast put you through enough?

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy;

for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves;

we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

Today I search for wisdom because I have no wisdom of my own, I only have my observations. Change has never been easy for me. Big changes, little changes, superficial changes...I saw them all as a threat to my way of life. A new sofa or chair, different pillows on my bed, a new microwave or refrigerator...all of these things are small and seemingly insignificant when they happen one at a time. However, when everything changes so quickly it becomes overwhelming.

"Things do no change. We change." ~Henry David Thoreau

However, I know that it isn't the new furniture or appliances that really bother me, they are just manifestations. What I am really having trouble with are the changes in my family unit, the health of a loved one...rapidly detiorating, moving out and moving on.

"For everything you have missed,

you have gained something else,

and for everything you gain,

you lose something else."

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Part of me is extremely excited to start another journey, another adventure. I know that this road, like all roads worth taking, will have challenges and frustrations. I also know that I could not have stayed where I was, doing what I was doing...and I cannot stay where I am now, doing nothing. Therefore my choices are limited. I must accept and embrace change and move on or dwell on how things used to be. The choice seems clear however, at the moment, it is blurred by strong memories and old emotions.

"Life belongs to the living, and he who lives must be prepared for changes."

~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

My new ink!

2009-07-03T11:02:00.001-04:00

"They still have a lot to experience...and I don't say that lightly."

2009-06-30T22:06:00.003-04:00

Is it just me or are the subjects of reality television shows becoming younger and younger? Next think you know there is going to be a reality show about what goes on during recess at elementary schools, for god sakes!

"Did Kelly push Tammie down? Will Mike circle 'yes' or 'no' on the note that Sara passed him? Who will get to use the basketball net at lunch hour? We'll find out next week on Bravo's new series 'Grade School Confidential'"

It's ridiculous!

Bravo's new series 'NYC Prep' follows the lives of six high school students (who don't all necessarily go to Prep school). The youngest subject is a girl named Taylor who is 15 years old and attends one of the top rated public schools in the country. She is eerily mature for her age and is already going on dates to fancy french restaurants with boys who are talking about 'hook ups'. How creepy is it that adults are following the dating lives of 15 year old girls? What sort of adult wants to listen to a 15 year old talk about her turn ons?

So creepy.

"There are people dying, if you care enough for the living, make a better place for you and for me."

2009-06-28T20:10:00.005-04:00

“In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.”

~Michael Jackson

We have lost so many public figures over the past few weeks. Michael Jackson, Farah Fawcett, Billy Mays, Ed McMahon, David Carradine...It is unfortunate that in death, as in life, these people are unable to be at peace. Speculation about cause of death, intense media scrutiny and dramatic new 'revelations' about their lives are keeping these people from being able to rest. We are turning this difficult time into a circus instead of mourning.

The thing that bothers me the most is that you cannot turn on your television, radio or computer without being inundated with some random celebrities take on these tragedies. I don't particularily care how Justin Timberlake, Estelle, P. Diddy or Elizabeth Taylor feel about Michael Jacksons death, do you? Shouldn't these people be able to mourn the loss of their friend/hero/family member in peace?

When we lose someone that we care about, be it a friend, an inspiration, a mother, a father, a hero, we should all be able to concentrate on what we loved most about them. Their spirit, their voice, their ideals, their body of work....that should speak for them in death as it did in life.

"We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will."

“We teachers are rather good at magic, you know.”

2009-06-18T20:01:00.006-04:00

The new posters for 'Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince'.

Ah-may-zing.

Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not. ~Dr. Seuss

2009-06-18T17:38:00.003-04:00

I gave blood today.

I have only given blood once, in highschool. After that I came up with excuse after excuse when Canadian blood services called me (I just got a piercing, I just had a tattoo done, I just got another piercing, etc.). I'm not sure why I kept putting it off. Fear mostly, I suppose. I don't like needles (I don't think anyone does) and I'm not a huge fan of large quantities of blood.

By some twist of fate I was given the day off of work and as I was walking back to my car I noticed the 'blood van' and I thought 'why not return the favour to the universe?' I am not normally superstitious but I do believe that if the universe gives you something you should give something back.

So take some time today to give back to the universe.

"Popularity is not an indication of quality."

2009-06-17T00:30:00.004-04:00

I would like to think that I have gotten over the need to prove myself to other people. If you want to be friends with me that's fine...if you don't...your loss (because I'm awesome). But I am not going to spend another year of my life being someone I'm not so that I can be part of the 'cool crowd'.

I am more concerned with spending my time finding out who I actually am!

2009-06-13T17:25:00.001-04:00

Coming together is a beginning. Keeping together is progress. Working together is success.

2009-06-12T23:37:00.005-04:00

First off I would like to say that I am very grateful because everyday I get to work with people I love. However, this can often be as much a burden as it is a blessing.

Today I reached my breaking point. Over the past few weeks my co-workers have faced challenge after challenge head on, pulling together (for the most part) and doing incredible things. Perhaps that is why I am so disappointed now...after seeing that it was possible for everyone to pull together it is even more upsetting when people begin to take short cuts and disrespect their co-workers. Don't you have any pride in your work? I know that for most of us this is a job and not a career but I still don't understand how people can half-ass their work and walk out with their head held high.

How can you be proud of yourself? It's not like you are leaving extra work for some stranger...you're leaving it for your friends to do. You expect them to pick up the slack because you 'have plans' or are hung over etc. etc.

Haven't we seen what we can do when we all work together? Didn't that fill you with pride? Why can't we work like that all the time? What will it take to make us a team everyday?

"A team is more than a collection of people. It is a process of give and take."

"I was hiding under your porch because I love you....can I come in?"

2009-06-10T17:46:00.004-04:00

You must see this film.

You must see it with a box of kleenex.

You must not see it on a date.

I guarentee you will love it.

If you don't...well...you have no soul...and that's your problem.

2009-05-26T11:07:00.003-04:00

"I don't like being single, no. I live this fantastic life, full of all these magical things, and at the end of the day all I want to do is pick up my phone and share it with someone. The other day I'd sold a million records in the U.S. and I didn't have anyone to tell. It was actually a really lonely moment."

-Katy Perry

"Your love glass is half full."

2009-05-21T18:20:00.004-04:00

"Whats a perfect date?"

"You take someone to Applebys and buy them hot wings."

I must see this movie...it's called Paper Heart. You should see it too.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1331064/

"Rita...if you only had one day to live...what would you do?"

2009-05-16T01:05:00.003-04:00

What would you do if you were Bill Murray in the movie 'Groundhog Day'? If you had to relive the exact same day over and over again?

Would you play the lottery?

Would you sleep with everyone and anyone?

Would you use it as a party trick? To impress your friends?

Would you eat absolutely everything?

Would you travel?

Would you tell someone you loved them (even if you sensed that they might not feel the same)?

Would you tell off that jackass that you work with?

Would you quit your job all together?

Would you blow your entire savings?

Would you hijack a car?

Would you pick a fight?

Would you lie? Cheat? Steal?

Or would you just test your new circumstances? Throw a wrench in the plan? Do your best to throw nature off it's course?

One of those days I would tell everyone in my life exactly how I felt about them...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

What would YOU do?

“'Tis healthy to be sick sometimes.”

2009-05-14T15:50:00.003-04:00

What is it about being sick that makes you want your mother so badly?

I didn't have a 'stay-at-home' mom when I was a kid (don't worry about me, I'm fine with it) and yet I still long for my Momma when I have the sniffles?

Weird.

Especially because my only memory of staying home from school when I was sick is of sitting in bed with my Dad and 'testing out' the bell they gave me to use if I needed anything...a power which I'm pretty sure I abused.

I don't remember being given chicken soup or force fed O.J. and yet that is what you automatically do when you're sick.

Is it all power of suggestion by the power of media and pop culture? I mean, I'm sure these things are good for you but how much can they actually do for you when you're already sick?

Meh. I hate being sick.

2009-05-13T01:11:00.001-04:00

"Oh my god! We're gonna die and I'm wearing my mothers underwear!"

2009-05-13T00:51:00.003-04:00

Even though it is an absolutely horrible movie...
I will always love 'Grease 2'. The horrible songs ("Reproduction", "Cool Rider", "Calendar Girl" and "Bowl Tonight"), the teen angst, the incredibly bad acting and classic lines ("He jumped over a cop car at the bowl-a-rama. And that was a REALLY BIG JUMP!"). All of these things put together make a sequel that most die hard fans totally despised but, for some reason, I absoltuley loved it!

P.S. For anyone who has seen the movie one of my favorite parts is during the talent show when the Pink Ladies are singing "Calendar Girls" when Stephanie (Michelle Pfeiffer) zones out and the star she is wearing on her head flies off into the distance...and then there is this absolutley horrible dream sequence with a pile of motorcycle parts painted white so it looks like heaven...."Oh, it all seems so unfair, just when I found you I lost you..." then it fades back to reality and she is singing all by herself in front of the auditorium full of people and everyone gets up and smiles thinking it was all planned. B Movie GENIUS!

The Internet is just a world passing around notes in a classroom.

2009-05-12T18:46:00.006-04:00

This is a business card holder!
And a Christmas ornament.

And a BRACELET!

Sometimes you find the most interesting things on the internets...

“A poet is someone who stands outside in the rain hoping to be struck by lightning.”

2009-05-12T17:25:00.003-04:00

Some people love the rain.

I am not one of those people.

Wait. Let me rephrase. I know that rain is necessary and at times it can even be beautiful however, when a rain storm is so violent that it triggers the fire alarm in your building..that's not cute.

There is something really frightening about the rain, especially down here. Snow, although it can be quite treacherous on the roads, always seems quite peaceful and serene. Down here the rain blinds you while you drive, it raps violently against the window, it destroys trees and dents cars and cuts off the electricity...it's scary. I have never been one of those people who sit on their front porch 'listening to the rain'..well, I did it once...for a boy...it was lame. I would much rather hide in my bed and wait for the 'rain, rain to go away'.

Or, alternatively, go to Panera Bread, use their internet and wait for your alarm to be shut off.

"Make it bigger, make it badder, make it awesome."

2009-05-07T22:18:00.001-04:00

I
am

obsessed.

“I've always wanted to be a spy, and frankly I'm a little surprised that British intelligence has never approached me.”

2009-05-07T21:42:00.001-04:00

Today I locked myself out of my apartment. Fuck.

Then a thought occoured to me....I've seen it on lots of television shows and in movies...perhaps I could break in? I have never done it before and I had no hot clue what I was doing and....IT WORKED! I am a genius! I should be a SPY! I want my shoe phone and fancy car immediatley!

"When it's three o' clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London."

2009-05-07T17:48:00.001-04:00

The reasons that I love New York are as varied as the city itself.

The city is constantly alive with action and wonder, no matter what the season.

The neighbourhoods are microcausms of the world.
Moving at their own pace, living by their own rules,

not caring what anyone else thinks and yet they all seem

to be catering to the needs of the millions of visitors.
to their fair city.

The people are unpredictable, varied, beautiful, preoccupied,

diverse, passionate and entertaining.

The people make the city.

Each street is a combination of grit and whimsy.

You see things that are disturbing, powerful, frightening and inpsiring.

Every day is a surprise, a gift and a challenge.

As cliche as it sounds, there is truly something for everyone in this town.

One of a kind shops, world class dining, literature, museums

(both for the art lover and the art hater), music, theatre,
sports, people watching, nature, science, history, media...

everything you would ever need on one tiny island.

"Dude, at my wedding all the groomsmen are gonna wear swords."

2009-05-01T20:28:00.001-04:00

On the lighter side...you should defiantley check out http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/. It is HILARIOUS.

"Waste everything except time. Time is your most valuable commodity."

2009-05-01T20:02:00.001-04:00

I have always found it very difficult to balance groups of friends. I've had some pretty amazing experiences in my life (so far) and often some pretty amazing friends come out of those experiences. However, when you've moved on from one experience to the next and those friends come back...how do you deal with them? They're from a different time and place when you were a different person and perhaps that means that they are not the best fit any longer.

People you once loved fiercely seem mismatched to who you have become...the grown-up version of the girl that they shared an adventure with years ago. And what do you do when this happens? You have shared some very intense experiences with these people, you have been through joy and heart break with them, you have stood by them when they have been wronged and they have done the same for you...you're grateful...but unsure how to proceed. I am unsure how to proceed.

The best I can do is be grateful for the friendship we had and what we experienced together. I hope that somewhere down the line we will fit together again.

Until then, friend...until then.

"Why do they call it a crush? Because that's how you feel when they don't feel the same way?"

2009-04-26T18:39:00.001-04:00

It blows my mind that an intelligent, seemingly mature and independant woman like myself cannot handle a simple 'crush'. Heck, I'm surprised I still get crushes. Isn't there a deadline for that sort of behaviour? A time in your life when you start having real, mature relationships instead of fixating on a person and obsessing about them for a few weeks before losing interest.

And why am I not capable of keeping these things to myself? For about a week I will keep the new feelings to myself, when the second week comes around I am just overflowing with affection that I have to tell one or two important people...after that...all hell breaks loose! I tell anyone who will listen....I use it as a CONVERSATION STARTER for God sakes!

What is wrong with me? Do I just really like the attention? Or do I think that if I put it out there into the 'universe' it might happen? Do I secretly hope that someone will tell the guy? So I don't have to? GAH! Is this why a normal, mature relationship eludes me? Because I still have the maturity of a 12 year old?

I need help. *sigh*